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The Calm Before the Chaos

Thanksgiving week and all is quiet today.  Tomorrow both my daughters, my sister and her husband arrive for the holiday.  Lately it’s been pretty quiet around the house.  One of the things I miss about not working is the socialization.  I didn’t expect that exactly.  Going to a job every day meant hanging out with some people I really liked and enjoyed talking to, it also meant that I could be helpful to other people, face-to-face.
 
 
I’m still working on being helpful but I can’t see you!  I don’t hear you.  I can only hope that I’m helpful somehow.  I feel quietly out of balance as I continue to adjust to the changes I brought upon myself.  Being self-employed means there’s no external locus of control, only the internal one.
 
 
Yesterday I bought enough food to feed a small army. For that I am grateful, that I continue to live in abundance with the support of my husband and the love of my family.  It’s what I am grateful for today.  I’ll be cooking up a storm soon.
 
 
May you be well fed always.  May you be healthy.  May you be blessed.  May you find gratitude in your daily life.

 

 

18 Comments

  1. Lauren Huston on November 21, 2011 at 1:55 pm

    Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family! I know what being self-employed is like and there is definitely more of a responsibility placed on me to take the initiative in getting out there! I have been doing more and more of that and love the contributions that I am making to my community!
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    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 4:57 pm

      I spent so much of my life working for the community that it feels odd not to be doing that now.

  2. petrea on November 21, 2011 at 2:20 pm

    Loran, I hear you, I see you, I thank you. You have so many beautiful gifts to offer I am sure others are receiving, even if you can’t see them or hear them. I have found that part of being online daunting at times too, wondering if my post have reached out to people and touched them, wondering if they don’t respond because they have nothing to say, don’t like what I write or are just too busy. I just have to tell myself that it is as much about me putting myself out there and expressing myself, with the hopes of resonating with someone out there.
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    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 4:58 pm

      Petrea, I know all the work you are putting out there for parents is resonating for me. I can’t be the only one!

  3. Allurynn on November 21, 2011 at 2:25 pm

    Happy Holidays to you and yours, Loran! I can certainly understand that feeling of missing the socialization that come with going to the office. I’ve been working in my own studio for years now and being a big talker, I still miss the face to face interaction and socializing especially around the Holidays. But it doesn’t compare to the wonderful freedom of being a creative entrepreneur ♥
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    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 4:59 pm

      Ah, yes, Alluryn, the freedom is wonderful! I do love being able to be creative even when it’s a challenge.

  4. Ileane on November 21, 2011 at 2:56 pm

    Hi Loran, it’s my first visit but I’m learned a lot about you already. Thanks for the wonderful post and the beautiful photo. You’re a blessing and I wish you and your family a very happy holiday. Chat soon.
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    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 5:00 pm

      Ilene, I definitely look forward to charting more in the future!

  5. Jo on November 21, 2011 at 2:58 pm

    Sending you and your family much love and prosperity this Thanksgiving week. I understand the feeling of isolation when you work for yourself – perhaps it’s time to find some business allies in your community for a weekly tea date? Nothing like have cheerleaders in the flesh!
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    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 5:00 pm

      A weekly tea date sounds awesome, Jo. Wold you like to join us? May you enjoy the holiday season as well.

  6. Beth on November 21, 2011 at 3:41 pm

    Those of us who know you from the web – are so blessed to have you as a friend! I join the others and say that I see and hear you and I feel the love you have for others that flows across the web.

    Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and talents with so many. Happy Thanksgiving and I hope you get a chance to put your feet up now and then with all you will be doing! 🙂

    hugs and love,
    Beth
    Lady B

    ps – I really understand the feeling you wrote about here and how being self-employed can feel isolating at times – but it’s so nice to reach out to each other through the Goddess Circle and other places! 🙂

    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 5:02 pm

      Thank you, Beth, for those kind words! it’s been my blessing to get to know you as well. Hope your holidays are full of cheer!

  7. Annette on November 21, 2011 at 8:51 pm

    Awesome, Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours. Be thinking of my wonderful friend

    • Loran Hills on November 21, 2011 at 9:04 pm

      Hope you have a healthy holiday, Annette!

  8. Shanna on November 22, 2011 at 7:35 am

    Thanks for the journaling class. I’ve been successful 34 of 34 days and it has been great! Good luck on you journey and Happy Thanksgiving.

    • Loran Hills on November 22, 2011 at 7:58 am

      Shanna, I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to know that you are journaling regularly now! Way to go! Hope you have a great holiday too.

  9. Ellie Di on November 22, 2011 at 9:29 am

    I know what you mean about missing socialization and an external locus of control when you’re working at home/for yourself (I’m doing both, actually). The best thing I’ve learned to do is purposely set up social engagements and accountability outside of my Self so I can at least somewhat put more structure in place.

    A happy holiday for you this week, my dear! Have some extra pie for me. :3
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    • Loran Hills on November 22, 2011 at 10:25 am

      Ellie, I’ll be happy to eat some extra pie–just for you!

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